Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Had another weird/stressful dream. ++"

Woke up with total frustration again.
This time is because I cant spell Horton in my dream. Some lady was telling me to spell Horton and I keep spelling it as Hyotron/Harwtron/Hortyon/.....etc.... (I was in google search and I just cant get the word right) and I was so agitated and forced myself to wake up. The agitation stayed on and I have to listen to Dim Sum Girl to at least make me feel a little better.



And before the spelling issue, I dreamt that during Mean Machines (an event) the authorize personal forget to close the entrance and allowed cars to fill up the event space. So, I ran and try to close the entrance. Then when I walk out of "where-ever-I-am" a restaurant, it started pouring.. The place flood, I ran and I fell and then, the next thing I know is I'm "water-skiing" (see picture for illustration) all my way around the place.. =="


I wonder is it the examination stress giving me all these kind of funny dreams wei..
Imagine waking up feeling so annoyed at something which dont even exist.!!  >.<

Monday, September 20, 2010

I thought I saw ghost

It's actually a model's picture. But the hair is messy and fuh~ scary`!!!

finals Y3 S1.

Yes. TOMORROW IS MY FIRST PAPER. *damn!* all the best to me. ><

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Am I still in a dream.?

I guess most of you guys watch Inception right.?
Something similiar happened the other day when I was taking an evening nap. *as usual, being lazy!*
When I woke up I was freaking confused. LOST in another word. X.X


(dream world----)
I walk pass a room in my Ipoh house (downstairs room, guest room). Then I saw B inside the room.. I reversed and looked into the room. (at that moment I know I was dreaming so, it's nothing much.. As we all know in dream world anything is possible).

B called me into the room, I when in and ask him "what are you doing here?" he answered, "I have some problem I cant go home so I came and stay here".. Then I thought, B is from KL, why would he come and stay at my place which is like so far away.. AND, why would my mum even let him in, my mum doesn't know him.. at the mean time, B kept telling me this is not a dream. He kept repeating it, that this is not a dream. It's reality.. But I cant believe it, I when out of them room, then I saw my main door is not lock, then more confused I became, (knowing my mum so well, she will not let the main door unlock. NEVER not even short moment). I  locked the door.

Suddenly mum shout my name, I when upstair, then she ask me hang the clothes to dry.. then I refuse to do it, knowing its a dream. Then my mum scold me, "what are you waiting for.? dreaming aa.?"..  more confused I am now.. in my mind, I AM DREAMING.. BUT why is everyone telling me I'm NOT dreaming.???? horrible feeling.. conflict!!.

I when back downstairs, I saw B is still in the room (hoping he is gone, cause I cant believe my own eyes) But he was still there, I when in the room again. This time I saw him crying. He still kept telling me I'm not dreaming.. but I denied and say I AM DREAMING..

I slapped myself to know see whether am I dreaming or not.. But even I felt a little pain but I couldn't justify whether am I dreaming or not.. cause there was just a mild pain..

B stopped me from slapping myself.. and re-convince me and told me to call his phone..then I will know that I'm not dreaming... (he is using a white slide phone with silver lining, which is SO NOT HIM).. I told him I'm dreaming. everything is not in place.. it's impossible for him to use that phone and my mum leaving the door open.. He insisted that I call his phone.. I gave in and called his phone..


Then when his phone rings..

SUDDENLY...  he transformed into a lil girl.. (those fairy/witch/Peterpan type of lil girl)... the girl started to laugh and laugh.. laughing at my stupidity.. (it was scary wei at that moment, WTH!!! I was in total SHOCK!!)

After that I woke up.. waken by my phone.. Joshua messaged me regarding dinner.. but even after I woke up, I was still in a confusion state of whether was I dreaming or what..

(back to reality.....----)

It's scary cause I always think that by slapping yourself, you will know whether you are dreaming anot.. BUT this is not the way it is this time. People around me kept telling me I'm not dreaming.. When I know I am.. This is a HORRIBLE feeling.. emotional unstable.. ><|| I dint know what to think that time.


Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Hope

by knowing you so well. or so i tot. reading all these things really make me think that i'm being dumb to hang on. things will never be the same again. now i und why is the 4th time will never happen again. good bye.  -my status update.


to whom it may concern, most probably the person will understand himself. to those who doesn't knows, then just let it be.

I told someone that I was heart broken because of a false hope. but the person ask me, "what is real hope then?" I thought about it. I guess I was speechless. To think about it, my this-so-called 'false' hope was actually a real hope last time - before it turn false. So ya, I think it's just a 'PAST' hope. cause whatever is it, its the past. Things has moved on and its time for me to move on also. Lingering around here will not help me heal any part of it. Its just like opening the wound again and again. It is just making it worst.

this what I see - a long road with no ending to it
Some time I thought I am strong. As I've said, it's just a thought. I'm not strong at all. In the end I realize I couldn't faced it myself. When I saw, I turned away. I'm running away from it hoping its not trailing behind. My final say. IT'S OVER. Putting an ending to it.  It will not be back again. No point.

To all who have read this. Don't ask me about it. It's over. To those who know what I'm talking about then I guess you will understand this post. To others, I'm just blabbering.

Monday, September 13, 2010

study-random-ness #3

Chipmunk = Joshua Lim Siong Jet
Joshua asked me to draw him a chipmunk as a part of my entertainment during studies.
and yah.!! here is it.! cute huh.?
I know it look like a squirrel and yah very much like a squirrel.. but it's a chipmunk!
XD

and the writing on the left. I wrote it wrongly actually.. just too lazy to edit.. hahaha..
so.. use another color and edit.. smart huh.~ *proud-ness~ ^^*

study-random-ness #2

Raisins!!
Blame the lappie for all these random-ness cause it has a webcam on it.. XD
*im eating more than im studyin! cheers~*

Sunday, September 12, 2010

study-random-ness #1

Studying too much can cause this.  

this is suppose to be MADM TOPIC 8 : Product Decision. X=

Toothy, my friend =B

Meet Toothy.. my new desktop friend.. XD.

 Its gonna accompany me to study.. wakakaka. XD

Saturday, September 11, 2010

Just Let It Go



its specially dedicated to someone.

Friday, September 10, 2010

All I needed is Him.

Some time all I need is just a hand.
A hand to pull me up when I'm down.
When I was too busy looking around,
I forgot to look up.

But without fail when I look up,
I see my Daddy with his extended hands.

Try by Asher Book

The song, Try has been playing on my playlist for the whole day.
Can be considered as a quiet "emo-ish" song however I find it inspiring especially the part,
am I catching up to you
while your running away , to chase your dreams
its time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
and maybe im not ready

but I'll try for your love
It does reminds me of once a friend told me that,
"  a hero might not be ready to save his princes but he still wanna try because he couldn't wait anymore.""
Sometime we need to make changes to make a better tomorrow; at least we tried today. 

It been hard on me this pass weeks trying to get over what has happen. Even I'm not so over it yet but this song really help me through this horrible final emo-ness. 


Here's the song enjoy it. I fall in love with it every time I listen to it. It's just lovely.

TRY
Asher Book
If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me
If I ask you to stay would you show me the way
Tell me what to say so you don’t leave me
The world is catching up to you
while your running away to chase your dream
Its time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
and maybe im not ready

CHORUS
but I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough

if I sing you a song would you sing along
or wait till im gone , oh how we push and pull
if I give you my heart would you just play the part
or tell me it’s the start of something beautiful
am I catching up to you
while your running away , to chase your dreams
its time for us to face the truth cause we are coming to each other to change
and maybe im not ready

CHORUS
but I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

2x Huh huhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh huh huhhh

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one would you believe me




Tuesday, September 7, 2010

its the time again.

it's the time again where I'm always feeling like I'm out of time.
it's time for finals again.
it suxx seriously.
it makes me emotionally unstable. XD
oh yes, I have been updating my blog for almost a month now.
I actually ran out of things to write. =)
but I think this exam period will make me write again.


*time flies and things changed. imy.

Ninja Me!