Friday, June 26, 2009


oh ya.
i guess UTAR bus is up against me again.
make me late for class today.!!

finally i'm going home to Ipoh today.
home sweet home.
gonna stay home and on bed all day long.
actually the reason i'm going back this time is because my grandpa wanted to see me.
the other day when Father's Day i called home.
grandpa said he dint see me for very long ask me when will i come home.
so ...
i'm going home.
honestly i dint go home for almost a month already.
and i have not seem m y grandpa for almost 4 month or more than that.

something to learn.

it has passed 5 days.
adapted to it.
but i guess being single tooooooo .. (emphasized on TOOOOOOO) long.
*to me it's long la.
i dont know how to treat a bf anymore.
weird huh.?~
guess i'm being the lousiest gf ever. lol.
no one mentioned anything but i just doesn't know how.
pity him now.
hope things will be better soon.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009


She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: 'How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?' The surgeon said, 'I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it.' Sally said, 'Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?' The surgeon asked, 'Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university..'

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. 'Would you like a lock of his hair?' the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.

The mother said, 'It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. 'I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom.' She went on, 'My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.'

Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.

The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room. She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them She lay down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Lying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said :

'Dear Mom,
I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say 'I Love You' . I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day.. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know.

Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important.. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'where was He when I needed him?' 'God said He was in th e same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.

Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have to give God His pen back now He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore the cancer is all gone.. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?

Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.

i actually saw a video on youtube about this story. wanted to post it up so much but couldn't find it back. today i check my mail i found it in my inbox. Brian sent it to me. thx. i did cried when i first read this. it's so touching.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

the begining of it.

the "Endurance Race" is over.
start of something new.
no turning back.
this is what i always wanted.
worth it or not.
it feels weird.
something official.?
everything is different now.


Thursday, June 11, 2009

fast post. hmmm..

Finally i can online with my lappie. in my room.
but something is still wrong somewhere. cannot configure.
this sem i'm like so freaking stress out.
it's just week 2 and i'm already feeling the pressure.!!
it SUX.!!
i wanna sleep and rest. cause today is the only day i'm home early.
everyday class end at 8pm and even on fri, class ending at 6pm.
how sucky right.?
all the lecturer dont make me happy also. sigh
sucky sem!!
gonna pull through.
with 6 subject.
it's not that each.
i'm like so burned-out.

aku nak manja.
manja sahaja.
dan rehat.

Monday, June 1, 2009

love = pain


one patheticly hot monday afternoon.(4.04pm)
typing this post.
sitting in UTAR's ICT.


not so much of a happy thought but gotta pull through it.
need to repeat my business law.
but not this sem.
need to be a nerd.
DEFINATELY damn geeky.

hmmm.. holiday is over.
sad thought.
back from all my trips, living in reality again.
spent my whole sem break in Penang(food was good), Langkawi (alcohol was cheap), Melaka (the rave was great!), KL. (from up north to south; lol)

alot people in UTAR. crowded. packed
NOT happening.
"people mountain, people sea"
see human also scared.
timetable SUXX.
lecturer damn 'leh feh'/not tidy.

alot rich kids drive nice car. (latest addition : toyota WISH)
UTAR became bicycle sea again. (never seen so much bicycle in my life before)
weather damn hot. NOT HELPING.

Ninja Me!