Wednesday, December 30, 2009


it's over.
2-0-0-9 is OVER.
welcoming 2010 in just another 10hours..
havent made any resolutions yet.
it's NEW YEAR.
and i'm in PENANG.


wishing all a great year ahead.!

sign out!

Saturday, December 12, 2009

december is HERE.


I know I know. Christmas is not about the gift only. BUT i just somehow came up with this list of what i wish for hoping that some GOOD SAMARITAN will send me one of my wishes. =) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHHHHAHHHHAHAHA.. *wishing HARD!*

ok ok
Let's get started.

A brand new Honda Civic by MUGEN. =)
ok ok .. a brand new car..
too much to ask.?
ok ok .. a CAR..........any car.....???

continue on...
the "NOT-SO-IMPOSSIBLE" wish..
a ALIENWARE laptop.
*watery, kitty eyes....*
ok lo.. too much again.?

the beauty of it....... alienware lappie.

next on the list....
the "QUITE-POSSIBLE" wish.
it's just more o less 3K.??
*innocent halo appearing*

ok ok ..
be more realistic...
the "MORE-POSSIBLE" wishes....
1. a new watch.??? not that big of a wish right.??

2. a Ralph Lauren perfume....
*this one very cheap only ok.? but i like the smell... i think is either HOT o ROCK.*

3. cube MP3 player. by MOBIBLU.
*this is not the one, but it looked something like this..*

4. new leather bag, suede preferred.. =)

or something like this. abstract..

5. wallet... clutch....
*mine gone gone gone.... gone... baby girl you are gone....*
*white & slim preferred..*

finally... last but not least.......
the "VERY-POSSIBLE" wishes.......
all i want for this CHRISTMAS is to spent it with people whom are worth spending with such as my FAMILY & FRIENDS. just wanna see everyone happy and be together this Christmas.

*oh yah! this is very-berry-hally important... above all... i know you still INSIST to buy me a gift wan.. i accept all range of plushies, soft toys, huggies, accessories, electronic gadgets, anything and everything... haha... and oh..!! there is this very cute horoscope lil' plush at TOY'R'US that i love so much....mine is RED in colour... but.. i cant find a picture of it.. (wonder who will buy for me...)*


Wednesday, December 2, 2009


someone said i'm not pretty but i got a good looking boyfriend.
lucky i dont like this guy and i know he is a jerk. so what ever he say does not affect me. but it just got stuck in my head and i think HE IS DUMB.
i am not pretty ah. SO WHAT.? 
i am capable of getting a better looking guy compare to YOU, fat and UGLY and love to boast. you are just a dumb guy who cant keep your mouth to your self. you must talk about everyone else. i am not happy about u talking bad about my friends as well. you talked about everyone. use your brains. you are almost 30years old but you cant think. what a waste. i dont hate you cause i know u will devastate yourself. even your own housemaate cant stand your attitude.
everybody hates you. =) cheers.

03.43am, 03-12-09

just came back from class party. BBQ. haha. ate too much until now i felt i'm gonna blow up soon. tummy bulging out like few months pregnant. *burp!*

this morning i had a wonderful dream. (morning as in last night, as in before i wake up) i dreamt that i was some detective, like ghost buster.. duo with a friend of mine (but in my dream he is my dad/cousin, which we are like flirting,so i think is not my dad.) we was going on some adventure, seeing panorama stuff. being chase by this lil indian girl where suddenly she became a hantu. haha. it was fun la.. i dint want to wake up.. REALLY damn reluctant. then phone rang. so just woke up and picked up the call.. then when i slept back hoping to get back into the dream. too bad. cannot. sigh! so i woke up at 2pm.

(i dont know wad to write so i wrote that.)

Monday, November 23, 2009

it ends today. dedicated to you.

 I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if u leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss u much
Miss u much

I can see the first leafs falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside

Outside it's no raining
And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end

I have your arms around me
Warm like fire
But when I open my eyes......
Your gone
this is how i'm feeling inside. eventho you are not the one that leave me. i left you. sorry. i was the one who started everything. and i'm the one who crushed everything. i hate myself for this. yes, call me stupid call me naive. i made the wrong choice. nothing can turn back time. i wish you well and thanks for the memories and all that you have thought me. 

the sky is cold and cloudy.
it's not raining neither it's hot.
it's just a piece of grey sky.
that's how i'm feeling now.
i have no feeling anymore. i'm NUMB.
but i'm fine.
it's my call, it;s my fault.
tears roll down cause i do love you.
but we are not meant to be.
we are 2 different person is 2 different world.
hopefully i made the right choice.
mayb i din't
it hurt.

i shall be single and not available for sometime.
not making any stupid move for being playful and naive.
no drastic decision any more.

6months from the beginning.
it's over.
edward loh chung leng.


Sunday, November 22, 2009


going back last weekend has awaken me again.
that the fact, life aint that happening anymore.
the people that we use to grow up with has grew up and left for a different path.
each of us has our own life to lead, our own battle to fight.
we do not exist in each others life as much as we use to.
i'm trying to get to use to it. 
i can ignore it but it's disturbing.
i do miss you always.
dont ask me why.
it's just that all of you has taken apart of me when u leave.
we do not talk as much as we use to.
we do not call each other anymore.
we do not see each other anymore.
life is so saddening.
this comes and go.
the last weekend i had the best time of my life.
eventho i had nothing to do but to sit and drink everyday.
but i met them. people whom i truly feel comfortable with.
i need not to put on a mask.
they do not judge me. they do not complain for who i am.
all the times we had together remains as the most wonderful memories of my life. the best times ever.
now everything is just ashes that being slowly blown away by the wind.
soon, everything is GONE.
i need a new life.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Come Back To Me.

suddenly Eric Khor make me listen to Utada's song. i still loves her songs. 

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Saturday, November 14, 2009

Interesting questions. I believe this will keep u occupied for some time. haha.

  1. Is the main reason Santa is so jolly is because he knows where all the  bad girls live?
  2. If someone with multiple personalities threatens to kill himself, is it considered a hostage situation?
  3. Is there another word for synonym?
  4. What do you do when you see an endangered animal eating an endangered plant?
  5. Would a fly without wings be called a walk?
  6. If a turtle doesn't have a shell, is he homeless or naked?
  7. Why don't sheep shrink when it rains?
  8. Can vegetarians eat animal crackers?
  9.  Is it true that cannibals don't eat clowns because they taste funny?
  10. One nice thing about egotists: they don't talk about other people.
  11. Do infants enjoy infancy as much as adults enjoy adultery?
  12. How is it possible to have a civil war?
  13. If one synchronized swimmer drowns, do the rest drown too?
  14. If you ate pasta and antipasta, would you still be hungry?
  15. If you try to fail, and succeed, which have you done?
  16. Whose cruel idea was it for the word "Lisp" to have a "S" in it?
  17. Why is it called tourist season if we can't shoot at them?
  18. Why is the alphabet in that order? Is it because of that song? I know why the numbers are in this order but not the alphabet:-)
  19. If the "blackbox" flight recorder is never damaged during a plane crash, why isn't the whole damn airplane made out of that stuff?
  20. Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, "I think I'll squeeze these dangly things here, and drink whatever comes out"?
  21. Or watch a white thing come out a chicken rear and think, "that ought to taste good" 
  22. Why do toasters always have a setting that burns toast to a horrible crisp which no decent human being would ever eat?
  23. Why is there a light in the fridge and not one in the freezer?
  24. Can a hearse carrying a corpse drive in the carpool lane?
  25. If the professor on Gilligan's Island can make a radio out of coconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat?
  26. Why do people point to their wrist when asking for the time, but don't point to their crotch when they ask where the bathroom is?
  27. Why does your OB-GYN leave the room when you get undressed if they are going to look up there anyway?
  28. Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours? They're both dogs!
  29. What do you call male ballerinas?
  30. Can blind people see their dreams
  31. Why is a person that handles your money called a 'Broker'?
  32. If quizzes are quizzical, what are tests?
  33. Why is it that when someone tells you that there are over a billion stars in the universe, you believe them, but if there is a "wet paint" sign somewhere, you have to touch it to make sure?
  34. If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?
  35. Do illiterate people get the full effect of alphabet soup?
  36. Why do they call it an 'asteroid' when it's outside the hemisphere, but call it a 'hemorrhoid' when it's inside your ass?
  37. Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him on a car ride, he sticks his head out the window?
  38. Is it good if a vacuum really sucks? 
  39. Why is the third hand on the watch called the second hand? 
  40. If a word is misspelled in the dictionary, how would we ever know? 
  41. If Webster wrote the first dictionary, where did he find the words? 
  42. Why do we say something is out of whack? What is a whack? 
  43. Why does "slow down" and "slow up" mean the same thing? 
  44. Why does "fat chance" and "slim chance" mean the same thing?
  45. Why are they called "stands" when they are made for sitting?
  46. Why is it called "after dark" when it really is "after light"?
  47. Doesn't "expecting the unexpected" make the unexpected expected?
  48. Why are a "wise man" and a "wise guy" opposites?
  49. Why do "overlook" and "oversee" mean opposite things?
  50. Why is "phonics" not spelled the way it sounds?
  51. If work is so terrific, why do they have to pay you to do it?
  52. If all the world is a stage, where is the audience sitting?
  53. If love is blind, why is lingerie so popular?
  54. If you are cross-eyed and have dyslexia, can you read all right?
  55. Why is bra singular and panties plural?
  56. Why do you press harder on the buttons of a remote control when you know the batteries are dead?
  57. Why do we put suits in garment bags and garments in a suitcase? 
  58. How come abbreviated is such a long word?
  59. Why do we wash bath towels? Aren't we clean when we use them?
  60. Why doesn't glue stick to the inside of the bottle?
  61. Why do they call it a TV set when you only have one?
  62. Christmas is weird. What other time of the year do you sit in front of a dead tree and eat candy out of your socks?
  63. Can you cry under water?
  64. How important does a person have to be before they are considered assassinated instead of just murdered?
  65. If money doesn't grow on trees then why do banks have branches?
  66. Since bread is square, then why is sandwich meat round?
  67. Why do you have to "put your two cents in".. but it's only a "penny for your thoughts"? Where's that extra penny going to?
  68. Once you're in heaven, do you get stuck wearing the clothes you were buried in for eternity?
  69. Why does a round pizza come in a square box?
  70. What disease did cured ham actually have?
  71. How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage?
  72. Why is it that people say they "slept like a baby" when babies wake up like every two hours?
  73. If a deaf person has to go to court, is it still called a hearing?
  74. If you drink Pepsi at work in the Coke factory, will they fire you?
  75. Why are you IN a movie, but you're ON TV?
  76. Why do people pay to go up tall buildings & then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground?
  77. How come we choose from just two people for President and fifty for Miss America?
  78. Why do doctors leave the room while you change? They're going to see you naked anyway.
  79. If a 911 operator has a heart attack, whom does he/she call?
  80. Why do toasters always have a setting that burns the toast to a horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat?
  81. When your photo is taken for your driver's license, why do they tell you to smile? If you are stopped by the police and asked for your license, are you going to be smiling?
  82. If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, what is baby oil made from?
  83. Is Disney World the only people trap operated by a mouse?
  84. Do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?
  85. Why did you just try singing the two songs above? "I confess I did" lol.
  86. Why do they call a person with red hair a "carrot top"? Carrot top is green!
  87. Why do they call it a boxing ring when it is a square?
  88. Why do they call it "jumbo shrimp"? How can something be big and small?
  89. Why is it called a pair of pants when there is only one?

Interesting Lawss.

in the end. this is my post. haha. i find it very interesting la..
  • Law of Mechanical Repair: After your hands become coated with grease your nose will begin to itch or you'll have to pee 
  • Law of the Workshop: Any tool, when dropped, will roll to the least accessible corner.
  • Law of Probability: The probability of being watched is directly proportional to the stupidity of your act.
  • Law of the Telephone: When you dial a wrong number, you never get a busy signal.
  • Law of the Alibi: If you tell the boss you were late for work because you had a flat tire, the very next morning you will have a flat tire.
  • Variation Law: If you change lines (or traffic lanes), the one you were in will start to move faster than the one you are in now. (works every time)
  • Bath Theorem: When the body is fully immersed in water, the telephone rings.
  • Law of Close Encounters: The probability of meeting someone you know increases when you are with someone you don't want to be seen with.
  • Law of the Result: When you try to prove to someone that a machine won't work, it will.
  • Law of Biomechanics: The severity of the itch is inversely proportional to the reach.
  • Theatre Rule: At any event, the people whose seats are furthest from the aisle arrive last.
  • Law of Coffee: As soon as you sit down to a cup of hot coffee, your boss will ask you to do something which will last until the coffee is cold.
  • Murphy's Law of Lockers: If there are only two people in a locker room, they will have adjacent lockers.
  • Law of Dirty Rugs/Carpets: The chances of an open-faced jelly sandwich landing face down on a floor covering are directly correlated to the newness and cost of the carpet/rug.
  • Law of Location: No matter where you go, there you are.
  • Law of Logical Argument: Anything is possible if you don't know what you are talking about.
  • Brown's Law: If the shoe fits, it's really ugly.
  • Oliver's Law: A closed mouth gathers no feet.
  • Wilson's Law: As soon as you find a product that you really like, they will stop making it.
  • Law of Chinese Restaurants: If you are the ONLY customer sitting in a Chinese restaurant when the next person comes in the hostess will seat him/her right next to you.

New Look.

Finally, i've updated my blog's look.
It looked more simple now. but i find it quite boring. but nvm. we'll see la. =)

i do a few more posting later. now i'll need to continue to try to make this page look a little more interesting.

so be patient and wait for the update.. =)

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

i'm addicted to this guy. CAPRICE.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009


Finally i decided to update my blog.
Here, the picture above is my new found friend that i've name it, JEREMY. it's actually because Mei suddenly thought of 3 names that starts with J and it rhythms. JIMMY. JEREMY. JAYMIE. (since there's three octopus). haha. so mine is JEREMY, Mei's is JIMMY and Calyn's JAYMIE. (the octopus comel kan.??)


nothing much happen lately. (the truth - alot things happened until i dont know where to start, lol)

But one MAIN thing that had past is.. MEAN MACHINES 2009.
the long awaited event is once again over. It was a great minus the fact that we all got so stressed up, MC hates me, people scold us cause some ugly car won. alot of thing la.. but the MAIN point is, no one can denies, WE ALL HAD GREAT FUN. (dont you dare deny!)

Monday, October 5, 2009

i want to write. but i'm not in a mood to write. alot of thing running in my mind. i'm confused and lost. still thinking. thanks.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

short update.

i admit this. my life became boring and i got nothing to write here.. lolx.
sem break is here.
going back Ipoh. then i wouldn't be onlining any more since my lappie's modem rosak. except i go CC online or Coffee Bean. but i believe i wont be THAT hardworking. lolx.
then i'll be in Penang. working.
then school restarts. haha.
my life is just that dull. haha.

today i got hired and fired. haha.
interesting huh.!

we just got back from Cameron today.
our trip suppose to be 2days 1 night.
however due to the weather and Astro, we extended and stayed an extra night. lolx.
ASTRO was so NICE. haha. MAGNIFICENT. *too long never watch tv* haha.
it was great.. i bought JAGUNG. haha. *Cameron's jagung is damn nice and cheap*

i want go lepak, i want go shop.
i'm so broke.


Tuesday, September 8, 2009


* i think i'm falling sick. i need to sleep. but i cant DONT write this.*
today is the legendary 090909. not really 09.09 090909 but it's passed 12am, so it's 090909..
i text my baby, tell him it's 090909 i want a surprise. but my baby dint reply me. i thought he was asleep. so i dint bother. it started because Mei was telling about she asking Vince to surprise her. so i just text my baby. i always complain that my boyfriend is NOT romantic, feeling-less boyfriend. but today, he proved me wrong..

i text him at 12 am, then at 12.30, he called me. ask me to come out of my house. so in my "baju yang selekeh", i when out. i saw his car, i open the door, i look the right, he stood there in his coat and look so "prince charming" ( he is my sleeping prince).. i screamed when i saw him. i was shocked. we both had a rough day today. we dint sleep last night, he was tired, because we finished the whole episode of Grey's Anatomy, when we are suppose to study. ok back to the story...he ask me to get on the car, and i dint event bring my IC or phone. he then drove me up to this lil' hill and the scenery there was beautiful. the wind was nice and the light was nice. baby, it might not be the nicest place but it's the best as i'm with you. sorry for all my judgment on you and all.. love yah baby. i dont wanna forget this night.!! thanks so much.

everything was beyond description
it made my day.~
i love you baby!

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

*oh! kiss me, and smile for me. *
this song is like SO STUCK to my head.
currently i'm kinda BUSY so, no updates. sorry. =)

tell me.

Thursday, August 27, 2009


Here, i do have alot to say. however i doesn't know where to start. there is stuffs. there is feelings. that i couldn't voice out here. i really wanna find some one to talk to but i felt like a hypocrite and it has nothing to do with me. it's just my jealousy taking over. talking about it would create an argument topic. life is like this.

it's not easy when u dislike someone but i cant just close your eyes and not see them anymore.
life ain't that easy.

Friday, August 14, 2009

District 9... incident.

seriously, i'm running out of idea of what to write. life's been so quiet thats why.. the only thing i do is... sleep... eat... go class... online... mafia war.... entah la... wasting away..?? hmmm.. everyday dreaming, why cant money fall from sky or grow from tree.... you literally meaning it, but.. it's like why cant get money easily.. the answer as my friend say.. if money grow on tree then inflation lo.. =)

oh ya. .. this is something i find it funny.. mayb just dumb..

then during the night we when down ipoh to watch District 9.
not bad of a movie. they make it something lik documentary..
on the way down.. (we were late dy_) then got road block.
KY was driving kinda fast then the police stopped us and took all of our IC. then ask KY to go down the car.

so, KY when. then..... all of us in the car panic... dont know what he wanna do...

Police : tadi kamu ada nampak itu road block aa.?? kamu hampir langgar police o..
KY : ada..
Police : kamu cina dari malaysia ke cina cina ke cina dari tempat lain.??
then KY was like, HUH ?
KY : cina, cina Malaysia lah bang"
Police : dalam but kamu ada apa apa benda a..?
KY was like, WHAT.?
KY : apa benda?
Police : benda haram, mercun...?
KY : tak de la bang... ..

then after that... he came back into the car and told us what happened la.. then we laught.. then we joke saying that.. if next time kena again...

we will say....
. KY, "saya cina dari S'pore" .
CY., "saya cina dari Thailand"
Me, "saya cina dari Indon"
Ed, "saya cina dari Vietnam"
. Chua, "saya cina dari Peking"
*the joke above only apply to people who know us 5.. haha.. it's all because of our look.. XD.

then the joke goes on....

. police : dalam but ada apa-apa.??

. Ky : ada mayat la.. shhhh jangan beritahu orang lain tau..

. police : *stunt.. entah what he will do la..*

. KY : ada mayat itu lipas.. selama dia mati dekat dalam... jangan beritahu orang lain tau..
lol.. it's just lame la.. why suddenly ask KY, "kamu cina dari malaysia ke cina dari negara lain."

... *hope those who reads this understands.. it's just LAME..*

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

what i want.!

you know wad i want now.?
i want :
  1. fairer skin
  2. longer hair
  3. bigger boobs
  4. thinner legs
  5. bigger eyes
  6. sharper nose
too demanding.?
but i'm satisfied now. =)

Saturday, August 8, 2009

everything is fine.

something is inside me
i dont know what is it.
it jus made me feel like crying.
by reading emails i'm touch.
tears flow.

nothing is wrong.
mayb i'm tired or i'm stressed.
i dont know.
just cried.
tears flow.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

think abt it.

he might not be the most romantic person on earth.
he might not be the most patient person on earth.
he nags alot.
he flirts.
he complaint against complains.
he is not rich.
he dont give me money to spend.
he is not big in size.
he does not has the sexiest body.
he is not perfect.
he is not glue. (he said)

but he is him.

he does stuff that touches my heart.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009


envy over girl who got a rich husband/boyfriend.
i always say that i want a rich husband.
*cakap only. takde aksi*
i see alot of girls with rich husband/boyfriend.
they life a good life.
they give her money to spend, take her to travel, feed her.
give everything she ever wanted.
but is it a good thing.?
i dont know..
when i'm feeling poor,
the only think that comes into my mind is..
why am i rich.?
as in why nobody want to give me money to spend.?
*being materialistic for a moment*
i believe everyone also hope to sit at home and wait for money to drop from sky and grow from trees..
thats my everyday dream.


Sunday, July 26, 2009


i felt so sorry for my housemates but i doesn't know what else to do but to blast my speakers.
only the blasting music can take thing off my mind.
i screw things up and i'm not happy with it.
i did my mistake.
i said the wrong things.
once again.
things are not going my way..
aku cuma mau dimanja.

Thursday, July 23, 2009


kena banned......

Saturday, July 18, 2009

i'm eating kacang puteh but english dont feel like kacang puteh to me...
(you know people normally say, "kacang puteh only la." means very easy only.)
but now i really feel english is torturing me..
i dont know how to write the report..
it's easy..
but i dont know how to phrase it.

Friday, July 17, 2009

live well, laugh often, love much.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

just to complain.

let me tell you. i guess is either nowadays lecturers (include tutors) are just THAT bad or is just UTAR hire bad lecturers & tutors. no doubt there's some REAL good lecturers & tutors but there are those REAL terrible ones.

this sem i have a few of them. . they are not helping at all. i was suppose to be ultra hardworking pushing thru to get a BETTER grades and get a better CGPA.

but.. you see.

Lecturer 1.
She never appear to class for week 1 & 2 's lecture. came in week 3, 4 and 5. dissapear for week 6 & 7. the main point is. (not that we 'love' class so much) every time she cancel class she NEVER inform us. we always appear sat in class an wait. and the weeks that she came, she came in late and left early. dint replaced any of the classes. damn du-lan. (point: NOT THAT WE WANT TO ATTENT HER CLASS BADLY)

Tutor 1.
his class is on wednesday MORNING 8am. bersusah payah wake up attend his class and listen to him telling his stories until 9 am and class dismiss at 9.30 am. we dont do much and i'm not complaining to the fact that we are not doing much. but i'm complaining that this man... is a DAMN SACARSTIC man. he tell us things right to our face. (some of you must be thinking, ok what being straight forward.) but. let me tell you what he says...

"if you are 20years old and you are still a virgin, there must be something wrong with you."
"this girl can do it why can anyone of you do it." ( just because she did the presentation slide for the presentation which was due 5 weeks later. refering to 1 out of 'atleast' 200 student. )
"the son's teacher always say my son, 'neh, the most handsome one.'"
"...many more..."

sad right. every morning go his class... kena...

Tutor 2.
malay lady. (i memang dont really favor malay lady teaching) she was ok. but she like to show those ANNOYED face to the class. giving funny stares.. "JULING-JULING" and she say the reason she is teaching is because she love to teach. but today. i doubt her statement. when she was explaining the class was alil noisy. then i guess she got annoyed then she was like, " ok, next question." the one of my classmate when and ask, "---something about the previous question, question4----" then she was like.. "i dont know. now we discuss question 5." sigh~ lady o malay lady.

else than these 3.. the rest is ok la.. i have a few good ones also. so.. dont complain so much la..
just let it be. and


Monday, July 13, 2009

something to say, but too much to say. not knowing where to start.

i just wanna write but i doesn't know what to write. there's alot of things that is running thru my mind right now.
i felt so much like a walking library.
i'm calling my self 'perpustakaan' today.
too much happening and i dont know where to start and what's the PROBLEM.
(problem is not necessarily a negative thing. it can be POSITIVE as well.)
just too much things to think about..
too much information to process.

life o life.
why are you so complicated.?
there's too much that i dont wanna miss out.
but time is so limited.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

sometime i'm envy of them.

i just loves her.
she is a lady-boy.
and her name is Nong Poy.
*thanks to Vincent Tan, introduced to me. *
she is like so cute. lol.
i'm not crazy or what la..
it's just that she is like so CUTE.
=) cheers and enjoy k.?

Monday, July 6, 2009

1 of 7 deadly sins. ENVY.

Pride is excessive belief in one's own abilities, that interferes with the individual's recognition of the grace of God. It has been called the sin from which all others arise. Pride is also known as Vanity.

Envy is the desire for others' traits, status, abilities, or situation.

Gluttony is an inordinate desire to consume more than that which one requires.

Lust is an inordinate craving for the pleasures of the body.

Anger is manifested in the individual who spurns love and opts instead for fury. It is also known as Wrath.

Greed is the desire for material wealth or gain, ignoring the realm of the spiritual. It is also called Avarice or Covetousness.

Sloth is the avoidance of physical or spiritual work.



What it is: Envy is the desire for others' traits, status, abilities, or situation.

Why you do it: Because other people are so much luckier, smarter, more attractive, and better than you.

Your punishment in Hell will be: You'll be put in freezing water.

Associated symbols & suchlike: Envy is linked with the dog and the color green.

Envy (also called invidiousness) may be defined as an emotion that "occurs when a person lacks another’s [perceived] superior quality, achievement, or possession and either desires it or wishes that the other lacked it."[1] It can also derive from a sense of low self-esteem that results from an upward social comparison threatening a person's self image: another person has something that the envier considers to be important to have. If the other person is perceived to be similar to the envier, the aroused envy will be particularly intense, because it signals to the envier that it just as well could have been he or she who had the desired object.



i have "the something" for guys in shirt.!
OMG, they are like so HOT.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

a tribute to Jan

today we talked about the past.
when the boyfriend is busy with their assignments,
we would come out for a yam cha session.
normally at MM.
you will order your all time favorite, paprik sotong.
eventhou you are allergic to sea food but you still love them.
you and mei will go on talking about vincent and lap mun.
just go on complaining.
then you both will tell me, "when you have a boy will understand our feelings"
i'll just laugh and say, "wait until i have my boy, i will join you people"
but that day dint come.
when i finally have one.
you are no longer here to laugh and talk about it any more.
just a few days before you left, i was suppose to celebrate your birthday with you.
but i was caught up with my assignment.
again i told you, i will find you yam cha another day.
sorry i am busy.
but that day will never come.
i regretted.
i miss you girl.

to janice saw.

Friday, June 26, 2009


oh ya.
i guess UTAR bus is up against me again.
make me late for class today.!!

finally i'm going home to Ipoh today.
home sweet home.
gonna stay home and on bed all day long.
actually the reason i'm going back this time is because my grandpa wanted to see me.
the other day when Father's Day i called home.
grandpa said he dint see me for very long ask me when will i come home.
so ...
i'm going home.
honestly i dint go home for almost a month already.
and i have not seem m y grandpa for almost 4 month or more than that.

something to learn.

it has passed 5 days.
adapted to it.
but i guess being single tooooooo .. (emphasized on TOOOOOOO) long.
*to me it's long la.
i dont know how to treat a bf anymore.
weird huh.?~
guess i'm being the lousiest gf ever. lol.
no one mentioned anything but i just doesn't know how.
pity him now.
hope things will be better soon.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009


She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: 'How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?' The surgeon said, 'I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it.' Sally said, 'Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?' The surgeon asked, 'Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university..'

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. 'Would you like a lock of his hair?' the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.

The mother said, 'It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. 'I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom.' She went on, 'My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.'

Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.

The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room. She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them She lay down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Lying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said :

'Dear Mom,
I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say 'I Love You' . I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day.. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know.

Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important.. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'where was He when I needed him?' 'God said He was in th e same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.

Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have to give God His pen back now He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore the cancer is all gone.. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?

Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.

i actually saw a video on youtube about this story. wanted to post it up so much but couldn't find it back. today i check my mail i found it in my inbox. Brian sent it to me. thx. i did cried when i first read this. it's so touching.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

the begining of it.

the "Endurance Race" is over.
start of something new.
no turning back.
this is what i always wanted.
worth it or not.
it feels weird.
something official.?
everything is different now.


Thursday, June 11, 2009

fast post. hmmm..

Finally i can online with my lappie. in my room.
but something is still wrong somewhere. cannot configure.
this sem i'm like so freaking stress out.
it's just week 2 and i'm already feeling the pressure.!!
it SUX.!!
i wanna sleep and rest. cause today is the only day i'm home early.
everyday class end at 8pm and even on fri, class ending at 6pm.
how sucky right.?
all the lecturer dont make me happy also. sigh
sucky sem!!
gonna pull through.
with 6 subject.
it's not that each.
i'm like so burned-out.

aku nak manja.
manja sahaja.
dan rehat.

Monday, June 1, 2009

love = pain


one patheticly hot monday afternoon.(4.04pm)
typing this post.
sitting in UTAR's ICT.


not so much of a happy thought but gotta pull through it.
need to repeat my business law.
but not this sem.
need to be a nerd.
DEFINATELY damn geeky.

hmmm.. holiday is over.
sad thought.
back from all my trips, living in reality again.
spent my whole sem break in Penang(food was good), Langkawi (alcohol was cheap), Melaka (the rave was great!), KL. (from up north to south; lol)

alot people in UTAR. crowded. packed
NOT happening.
"people mountain, people sea"
see human also scared.
timetable SUXX.
lecturer damn 'leh feh'/not tidy.

alot rich kids drive nice car. (latest addition : toyota WISH)
UTAR became bicycle sea again. (never seen so much bicycle in my life before)
weather damn hot. NOT HELPING.

Monday, May 25, 2009

morning shock!

i flung this semester.
my GPA 1.6 only.
shit la.!! i'm like so gone.. muD-I-Em is gonna kill me.

*amazingly. i passed my Macroeconomics. i flung Business Law, highest coursework. sigh!


*staring at the Absolut Apeach thinking...."when will i ever finish this bottle of thing......"
it's gonna take forever as i wont really drink it. mayb once awhile. but.... there's another 4 little bottle (50ml) Absolut Kurant, Pears and Raspberri and also Tequila Rose.. when will they be gone... NEVER i guess.* =)

*sniff sniff* my nose is watery and it's VERY ITCHY. dont ask why. i dont know.

for the first time today i when to the bank myself. i was like SO DAMN BLUR. i think aunty also 'smarter' than me. i stared at the 'number machine, the one you press then number come out wan' for very EXTREMELY long. until aunty, uncle, apek, asoh, ashum so look down on me, JAKUN.

finally, i'm leaving to malacca this wed. dad bought me bus ticket dy. 9.30am on 'some weird, tak pernah dengar' bus company. called... NINI=S.K.B.G=BANDAR SUPER NICE EKSPRESS which cost RM 35. it's a VIP bus konon la. i get to sit alone. haha. nvm la. as long as i reached malacca. haha.

despite influenza A HINI, i'm still travelling around like nobody's business.

btw, i know my blog post all are like SO BORING. i couldn't upload picture here at home due to the very patheticly annoyingly idioticly SLOW line. it's just 50.6Kbps. let it be alright.?? after i back to Kampar i will upload pictures. plus. my USB cable is M.I.A.. dont know where it when.. so..... please be patient. lol.

result is out but the page couldn't be loaded. how sad right. paranoid.!!

coming sem's timetable is out and i'm NOT happy with it. EMPHASIZED = NOT HAPPY.
the time are like so SO odd. seee.....

MONDAY : 8-10am, 12-2pm, 6.30-8pm
TUESDAY : 6-8pm
WEDNESDAY : 8-9.30am, 6-8pm
THURSDAY : 11-12.30pm, 3.30-5pm
FRIDAY : 9.30-11am
SATURDAY : 2-4pm

see... SATURDAY 2-4pm. one word to say . . SAD . . and the subject is ENGLISH FOR MANAGEMENT . . . LECTURE somemore.. *sigh!*

Saturday, May 23, 2009

i'm home!!

i know you missed me alot.

i'm back from Langkawi. and i stayed home for more than 48 hours. i dint step a foot out of my house. eating & sleeping too much and i think i gain weight again. *sigh!* why cant the weight just stop increasing so i could just eat my heart out.!! *rraaaaaa!!!* gotta hit the gym when sem starts.
plus, currently i hate my hair. why cant it just grow longer... it's like stuck half way. not long not short. kinda annoying.!!! ish~!!! and the weather everyday is like SO HOT. i can even feel the heat in the house. oh my gosh!! i wan to stay somewhere UP UP THE HILL where it's not hot.!! how i wish.!! *wishing real hard.!!* btw, i'm leaving for Melaka this tuesday *i hope so* staying till fri for the rave, Freedom. then after that i will be back in Kampar starting my Year2 in my course. 2 more years to go. *sigh! not a happy thought!*

my short term plan now is to get 3k and get my own DSLR.
but how.
any idea any one.?
tell me how to be rich la.~!!

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Navin gave me an idea.!!
found more kaki's'~!!!
jom jalan.!!

current life.

been running around up and down. so, i dont really have time to online and update here.
*giving you opportunity to miss me more!! =)*
i was in penang from 12th-16th of may, came back yesterday. and i'm leaving again tomorrow to kl and langkawi on 19th. running around like chicken. *again, i know you all will miss me.* so, i guess i wont update until i'm back, either on 21st night or 22nd.

oh ya.!! my penang trip with ky-ean, mei, vince, cy, victor was AWESOME.!! we ate alot. alot of expensive meals as well. lol. we had TGI, Pasta Mania, Subway, some Germany restaurant, drinking at Bagan, (cant remember what else we had.) just in 4days. met up with edward, and daniel. CONCLUSION. i'm like so BROKE now. but leaving for KL-Langkawi tomorrow. gonna be more MORE poor.. after that if go Melaka somemore.. i'm TOTALLY broke. haha. but. life is to be enjoyed. so, hentam je la.

Monday, May 11, 2009

i dont know how to feel hungry any more.
i've been eating CONTINUOUSLY for 48 hours.
had too much of food at home.
*now gotta leave for kampar. sigh~!!
gonna be in Penang until 16th of May.
dont miss me.!!

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

my pangkor post. long long long lost late post.

I AM . .
  1. suppose to be STUDYING.
  2. suppose to either rest or sleep.
  3. suppose to clean my room/table/cupboard.
  4. suppose to bath.
  5. not suppose to be craving for "food i'm NOT suppose to eat when i'm sick".
  6. gonna fight a good 'war'.

i'm not doing it all.

what's wrong with me. LOST. lol.

i enjoyed my whole STUDY week. which i am suppose to study hard or more of like study my arse off. but. i played so hard the whole week.
we when pangkor, ipoh, and god knows where la.

the Pangkor trip was so random.
3 of us. Edward, Caroline & Me
as we are not even prepare. dressed in jeans and sports shoe (carol). dint bring extra cloths we head of to Pangkor.
it started because the "SMART" GPS / spoilled GPS got lost. (in ipoh on the way back kampar). wth right.. (spoiled GPS is from ipoh, study in kampar, ipoh so small, kampar so near. . like this also can sesat) sometime i do salute myself for this. i have to capabillity to get lost in IPOH. event to places that i go everyday.?!??! note:I HAVE DECIDED TO QUIT BEING A GPS. then we sesat until pengkalan (amazingly i know where are we) then we decided to stop at a petrol station to grap a drink and ask for direction since we are LOST. so, carol when. then she came in the car and say :
apparently we are at the right direction.
the lady say, we go straight, pass 2 traffic lights then see Simpang Pulai sign the turn.

so, relieved. we follow. when passed 3 traffic lights. we dint see any sign board written Simpang Pulai. instead we saw LUMUT. so we was like lets go Pangkor. .. . .so there we go. . .. .(we was kinda hype that time.) before we reach, we decide to get MORE HYPE, so we when to ANOTHER petrol station to get 2RED BULL each. so we bottom's up and continue or journey with our haywired brains. next petrol station, carol got herself a can of KACIP FATIMAH (it taste kinda nice!) and down it when into her tummy, mixing with those coffee,tea, & red bull. on the way to Lumut we ask few fella for direction who amazingly gave us the RIGHT direction. hence, with that we reach LUMUT. not pangkor yet.

btw, carol dint believe that we are heading to pangkor for REAL.

on the way to pangkor, spoilled GPS made an attempt again. but. thank god! they dint follow. cause or else. we will be lost to entah mana. (so dont try asking to for direction from me!! WARNING!!) then we drove until end of lumut. where we saw the marine base and they were having some open day la. cause traffic only. plus, SULTAN came that day. and it's a FRIDAY (muslim prayer) the whole LUMUT JAM.! here cannot turn there cannot park. susah betul.!! then we found the port, we took a ferry accross the SEA. we when into the "captain's place"(the room where they drive the ferry) the view was so nice there and we talk to the man who manuever the ferry he was nice. (we when OVERSEA during study week!!) we bought clothes to change got ourself a rented car and there we go. ROUND ROUND PANGKOR.

we when to the temple and fort and... .... .. THE BEACH.!! we when for a swim (i mean THEY when for a swim i was at the side being washed by the wave...) watched the sunset. it was SO BEUTIFUL. so so lovely.~ it's a weekday, so the beach is kinda empty. so we had one part of it to the 3 of us. the scenery was beyond description.! we dint had our camera as ed's phone died and mine cannot take picture.. so we dint get any pictures. but all the "picture" will remain forever in our hearts.

we left pangkor reluctantly at 8.00pm. we was so exhauted but we really did enjoyed ourself. it was a long long LONG day as we dint sleep the previous night. WE WAS STUDYING in a cafe called the Big A cafe before we when to the temple, and also the birch memorial then look for my law book, then we when for breakfast then we got lost and lastly we reached pangkor.

we had our dinner at lumut. then we reached kampar about 12 am plus. and when as we reached kampar we saw a big fire. at old town. the fire was "eating" up 3 old shoplots, spreading to the 4th shop. there were so many people at the scene. as we parked our car when down and witness the fire as well. the fire was burning up so machines so the flame was so pretty. it was red and there were some green flame flikering. how can such pretty thing can be so fatal.

lastly. our whole adventour is over and we when home and sleep.

syuen post coming up soon. . . the day off to ipoh with vince, mei and family. . .

*i need to start my IS now.!!! sigh~ thursday exam!!

Jangan Bilang Tidak

*fight a good war! -Mei*

Monday, May 4, 2009

aiyo~ everyday busy with FINALS only.
entah bila can update..

*sick dy..

Sunday, May 3, 2009

this video worth watching!

Culture Unplugged Video

Thursday, April 30, 2009

i'm sorry that i've abandoned this place for SO LONG.
i wil be back soon!
after my finals.
stay tuned.!

Wednesday, April 22, 2009


i wan to complain to (who-so-ever who produce MAGGIE mee) dy.
the price increased but quantity decreased.
makan macam tak makan.
how sad.!!

today i was craving for Maggie mee, so i when and cook one packet.
mana tau. damn little wei.
feed cat also tak cukup makan.
how pity.!!

ooo. Maggie o Maggie.
why la you make me so sad.
i wanted to eat you so much.
but you dint taste that good today.

pemikiran cetek.

"ha si wa uu ce pak ban, wo ai chu-eh seh ii, wo ai che pu-ey ki."
*(not sure what 'pak ban' means, but i guess is MILLION) if i have 1million, i wan to get 'yi lai'/bini, and sit aeroplane.
so, it goes like,*

this is how 'cetek' my housemate's brain.

you see.
people with 1 MILLION will mastermind a great plan to make more money out of the money or do better investment right.
but my beloved housemate say, he wan to get a second wife and sit aeroplane.

me & Mei find it so funny cause he just suddenly phrase those words out.
then both of us stunt and started laughing and say we gonna blog about this.!! haha.
with his facial expression all..
damn funny wei!


my phone is alive.
no 'transplant' made.
but i plan to change it's 'heart'
but it gonna cost me RM180.
terasa poor.
hmmm... hoping mama will pay.

so close.
coming monday.
paper 1!

Ninja Me!