Sunday, November 30, 2008

my tersasar-ness.

khat will never hit the bull's eye.!
true.?
very true indeed.


let me tell you about my latest tersasar-ness.
lol.
okok.
WARNING!
* i'm not materialistic or what k?*

as everyone knows, Khatrine Lim has been officially single for quite some time la. about
1&1/2years.? ok. so she has been looking real hard for a new boy. then she made a statement.
"my next boy must be leng chai, rich and drive nice car, preferbally a BMW."
then,

not so long a go, she found some one who hit at the bull's eye. fulfilling almost everything.
he-*name him"X*, is young, not bad looking, rich, drives a BMW(white), +bonus, he's from Ipoh.
but the "arrow" wil not hit the target because...

HE ALREADY HAS A GIRL.

that's sad la.
then ok lo. skip that point.

then today in office, Mei started talking about another fella-*let's name him "Y"*

Mei : Nvm la, you gonna get a boy soon also la. Still got Y ma.
Khat : No NO no cannot la. really cannot accept him la.

Mei : Can la. you see. you wan leng chai, he leng chai from behind. you wan rich, he not bad ma. You wan drive BMW, he got BMX ma. Then bonus, you wan from Ipoh, he from Kampar ma. So, you tersasar a'lil only ma. As boss always say. AIM HIGH, SO THAT IF YOU DROP, YOU DONT FALL ALL THE WAY, YOU WILL DROP SOMEWHERE IN THE WAY.

Khat : *speech-less, just laugh*


you see....
Khat tend to tersasar damn terukly la. sad sad sadist !!
haha.




Monday, November 17, 2008

18Nov2009

mama actually came back to Ipoh dy. she's no longer working in KL dy.

this Sunday we (me, Mei & boss) will be going to Lumut for some car show. will be staying in Damai Laut. *happy happy me, got BEACH* lol. me and Mei planning to go golek golek at the beach dy!! hehe. lovey lovey!

*alotpeopleismakingmesad.
butthere'salotofpeoplecheeringmeup.
supportingfrombehind.
makingmehappyeachday.
holdingontothemoments.
iknowlifeisshortandishouldnotevenspendaminutefeelingsad.
butsadnessiscreatedforareason.
ilovetofallinlovebutiwillalsotendtofalloutoflove.
lifeisnotthateasy.
thislifewillnevergiveyouthingyouthingsyouwant.
butyouwillalwaysgetanalternativeitem.
itmightnotbetheoneyouwanted.*
be.grateful.of.what.you.have.and.hold.on.to.what.you.owns.

|*ignorance is bliss*|

it's so so true that ignorance is bliss. *sigh*

i was (still am) in the office. as usual typing some Thai company's address & name *torturesssss*. then . . . (itchy backside) surf friendster lo. then log in to "his" profile and look look around lo. then i saw this new album which just got loaded (not so long ago) then the title "my soh po". i was kinda sad. but i thought i can get over him. so continue clicking away. then. . . i saw "her" profile at his featured friends. as usual (khat cant be less itchy backside) when and click on it. this time i saw..... "her" comment box are filled with "his" i miss you, i love you..etc.. post. *starts to hurt* then. i saw an album also. "my soh lou". *this hurt so bad, i'm so close to crying dy. but i told myself i wont cry for him cause it not worth it.* hence, i just log out and dont feel like looking any more. at the mist of sadness.. . .. ..my WMP plays "take me to your heart" by MLTR. 1st, i dint know i have this song. 2nd, why must i hear it now. !!! *going cuckoooo dy*
(that song is actually i song i heard "him" singing when we when to a Kara-o-ke place the other day, and i have a video of him singing that song) so when i heard the song it's like. *OUCH!*. i took my phone. i delete all "his" 495 SMSes and now considering deleting all "his" MMSes and Videos. *sigh* why cant the feeling just go far far away!!!

"Take Me To Your Heart"
Hiding from the rain and snow
Trying to forget but I won't let go
Looking at a crowded street
Listening to my own heart beat
So many people all around the world
Tell me where do I find someone like you girl
[Chorus]
Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand before I'm old
Show me what love is - haven't got a clue
Show me that wonders can be true
They say nothing lasts forever
We're only here today
Love is now or never
Bring me far away
Take me to your heart take me to your soul
Give me your hand and hold me
Show me what love is - be my guiding star
It's easy take me to your heart
Standing on a mountain high
Looking at the moon through a clear blue sky
I should go and see some friends
But they don't really comprehend
Don't need too much talking without saying anything
All I need is someone who makes me wanna sing
[Chorus]

Friday, November 14, 2008

friday.

it's FRIDAY. tonight is the Appreciation Dinner for M2. lol. and i'm in PINK. looking like Pink Panther. *not a happy thought* ok ok. looking like Betty Boop *but she wears red, not pink.* WAIT. i dont look like cartoon. k k. NVM. i look . . . very cute !!. . . lolx. *perasan! / kembang!* wakakkaka.

Sunday, November 9, 2008

*random*

i realize most of my posts got no title la.. lolx. i'm bad at name-ing my posts la..
guess what.? i stayed home alone today. all alone. *bangga lah!!* but it rained and i H.A.T.E to be home alone when it rains. it creep me off. but i manage to stay thru it. lolx. mum is officially in kl. and now i have to do my own laundry and dish-washing. *forgive my laziness* i know i'm suppose to get my a** up from the seat and start iron-ning my cloths and wash the remainning laundry as i'm leaving tomorrow mrning. but i'm just to lazy.!! lolx. *sometime i do think, i'm borned lazy* wakaka.

hmmm*******************************************

Saturday, November 8, 2008

what a day.- 9thNOV.

today :
1) MAMA leaving me. she is going to KL.
2) SOMEONE is also leaving me. to SINGAPORE.
3) I dont get to go back Pg today.
4) I'm stuck home alone.
5) Everything dont seems right.-

i'm kinda sad. but i believe i can move on. life aint that bad afterall. i guess.

someone..
pleasee..
cheer me up!!!!
i do hate being an emo kid. but. i AM now.

Friday, November 7, 2008

7th NOV, the day life came and leave.

*sigh*
about 2 am i was waken up by her whinning so i assume is her time. so i take my pillow (my soft toy) and when down and check on her. so thinking that if she is giving birth tonight i think it's better for me to stay down there to ensure everything is alright for her. so i just sat at the door looking at her in the dark cause i dint want to on the light incase i freak her or what. so i just peep from the door in the dark and she seems alright. walking around, lying in the drain and just uneasy.
every hour i woke up to check on her. and she look find just that she seems to be in pain as she have problem sitting down. she look so sick tho. she looked tired. she drank alot of water and panting.
about 4 something i was woken by her again so i when and look outside the door and i saw the floor is totally wet. so i got a great shock. but she still seems ok. she just look at me and continue moving around. i just assume that her water bag just broke and she might give birth in another hour.? so i when back to the sofa and slept until 5 am. she sat there quitely and i look around everything seems fine to me. so i continue my sleep as my head is already pounding.
6 am, my dad woke up and he wake me up and ask me to go upstairs and sleep and he when out to clean the floor and i just when upstairs to sleep since my dad is already down there. so, i when to my room lie on my bed, type a message then "knock, knock" my dad knock on my door. i open the door and he told me that Liz gave birth dy but all died. i was shock because i dint know she gave birth. i was there all night long and i dint realize.? how dumb right.?
i when down and look. my mum also when down along. i saw 3 pups at a corner motionless. and Liz just sat back at another corner looking at us. then my dad say they are all dead. so mum and dad clean up the mess and dad when to another corner and check. he then saw another 2pups lying dead at the other corner. so he pick them up as well. and cleaned the floor. that time my dog was to tired to move. she just lie there. and i just when back to sleep. it was 6.30 then. my head was spinning like merry-go-round.
after i woke up., about 1 plus. mum told me after dad clean up everything. he when and bath and when he came out again Liz gave birth to another pup. but it's also dead. sigh. so that make it 6 pups which died this morning. pity her. she carried them for 60++days and all died. now she looked so tired and all slimmed down.

i felt bad and sad. but mayb this is also a good thing. because after she give birth i would need to find people to adopt that litter of pups because i wouldn't be able to take care of them as i will be in Kampar or Pg and mum will be in KL while dad working here. so. may the pups be happy up there. lol.

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

gosh!! it's wed again!!

offficially, i've been home one whole week~!! i came back last wed and it's wed again.!! what have i done.? NOTHING much. i want to shop. i wan to loaf. i wan to ............





:::tortured::: by boredem.
**now i do think i'm kinda workaholic. i cant survive without work. lolx.

i'm in love with ma work.!!


i saw you online. but it's just that i dont feel like disturbing you. so i just ignred it.i know wad doesn't belongs to me will not be mine.i'm doing the same thing again as when you left for s'pore the other day. lolx. only you know wad i did. haha. i'm gonna give it to you before you leave. you was here for a very short period of time only so i think i can move on without you.i hope i could. and if i ever did.i dont wanna look back and grief.!! all the best. take care. k.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

panic attack.

gosh!! my dog is gonna give birth soon. i'm so worry about her. will she gives birth smoothly.? hope there's no complication. aiyo~ then i leaving to Pg by this Sun then Mama also leaving this Sun. so, left Papa at home ni. aiyo.. can he handle my girl when she gives birth.? i'm so worried.. should i stay a.? hope she gives birth by this week. but after she give birth who is gonna take care of her. aiyo~~ i'm so paranoid.!! very much!! next worry : who is going to take her pups.? i cant keep all of them here.. mayb for the first 2 months i can la. after that where will they be.??

*sigh*

all the best to ma girl, Lizzie and all.

hmmm~ oh! i got back my Cbox dy. happy happy!! haha.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

i'm feeling much better today.~

lolx. thx Kevin for your back. lolx. i did made my day yesterday. i'm feeling much better today. eventho some tears cuddled in my eyes. but i'm happier today. lolx.

when to youth today. some where which i've not been to for ages. some where which still feels like home. i can sense the belonginess there. i know my Daddy is still here looking after me.
so i shouldn't be sad.

but,
human nature i can change right.? still will hurt and sad.

hmmm.. Mei ask me whether wanna go down KL kai kai this weekend anot. i feel like it. lolx. i think mayb can la. not sure yet. tml ask mama see. hehe. sigh~

**even tears are flooding in my eyes, but i will NOT let it flow.
even the stitches on my wound seems to be opened, but i will CONTINUE sewing it.**
i will not not cry.

Ninja Me!