Friday, May 30, 2008
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Thursday, May 22, 2008
"How can i live a better tomorrow without letting go of yesterdays.? Today will always be the starting point of a better tomorrow.
START WITH TODAY FOR TOMORROW, NOT YESTERDAY! "
I've been saying this repeatedly. And I'm tired of saying it.
But each time i thought about it.
It's still there. Stuck deep in my heart.
It's not about forgiveness, forgive and forget. I've forgive but i can't forget.
It's not that simple. I didn't mention it.
Am i still hurt from that incident.?
I DON'T KNOW. i really DON'T KNOW what am i feeling right now.
All i wan is just to ERASE the whole memory, from the beginning till the end.
ITS NOT EASY.
Have i not learned the lesson that I DON'T BELONGS THERE.?
Why am i still remembering all these things and keep letting it to hurt me.?
It's not their fault and it's not my fault. I KNOW.
Those memories are as fresh as it just happened.
It had pass for 7months. 7MONTHS. isn't it not long enough.?
Did it cut me so deep that even 7months cant heal.?
I LOVE you all. the FRIENDSHIP made then.
IT'S GONNA BE ALL OVER NOW.
HOME. (Chris Daughtry)
I'm staring out into the night, trying to hide the pain
I'm going to the place where love
And feeling good don't ever cost a thing
And the pain you feel's a different kind of pain
Well, I'm going home, back to the place where I belong
And where you love has always been enough for me
I'm not running from, no, I think you got me all wrong
I don't regret the life I chose for me
But these places and these faces are getting old
So, I'm going home, well I'm going home
The miles are getting longer, it seems, the closer I get to you
I've not always been the best man or friend for you
But your love it makes true and I don't know why
You always seem to give me another try
Be careful what you wish for 'cause you just might get it all
You just might get it all and then some you don't want
THANK YOU, for all the moments.
Here's something that really reminds me everything.
Tears would fall each time i hear this.
Your Guardian Angel. (The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus)
When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figure out
How this world has turns cold
And breaks through my soul
And I know, I'll find deep inside me
I can be the one
Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
(someone used to loves this part.)
I know I'll move on and NEVER gonna turn back to this again.
LOVE always. bottled up everything and never let it out anymore.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
WHAT IS HOMOPHOBIC?
so, i look this up in the Online Dict.
this is what i got;
homophobic [ hṓmō fṓbik, hómmō fṓbik ]
having irrational hatred of homosexuality: showing an irrational hatred, disapproval, or fear of homosexuality, gay and lesbian people, or their culture
AM I A HOMOPHOBIC??
I THINK I AM.
SO I DID THIS.
You Are 65% Homophobic
You're quite homophobic. In fact, you probably actively dislike gay people.
Your hate isn't doing any good. Chill out - and watch an episode of Will and Grace!
|You Are An ENFP|
You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller!
In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart.
You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts.
At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do.
You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.
How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding
When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused
in conclusion, i love being HOME. haha.
btw, i have decided NOT to cut my hair for another one month. haha. trying to let it grow a lil' longer.
last Sunday was one of the greatest day in the whole sem break-ing month. it wasn't anything that great thou. is just that i hardly get out of my house this whole sem break. lol.x. Smita sms-ed me ask me whether wanna come out for a drink since she's back. so, ok la. we decided to come out. three of us, ME, SMITA & SIEW EE. primary school friends la. we had alot great times together since primary school till secondary. lol.x. me and smita met up at CoffeeNet bout 10.30pm. while waiting i met up with SOMEONE there, talk a lil' with HIM. waited for siew ee till 1 plus. then we when to McD. chat till bout 5 plus ni we go home and i was suppose to go Sungkai at 7.30am. so it just like 2 hours of sleep ni. GOSH.! but we did had alot of fun time talking bout our school life and how we use to hate each other argue and stuff la. then my Sungkai trip with the YOUTHs was a fun-filled one. lol.x. we when dip-pin' in the hot spring (our feet ni) and had a "splashing" fun time "swimming" in the Mountain Spring Pool (guess thats the name la').
this week i watch-ed 2 movies.!
WHAT HAPPEN IN VEGAS.
THE CHRONICLES OF NARNIA : Prince Caspian.
both movies was great and hillarious. worth watching. haha.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
today, at the service, (i mean yesterday) during the service, they put up some of our baby photos, i mean CUTE baby photos. it really strucks me that time really REALLY flies. you see;
- 1years ago, when to Kampar. took foundation course. NOW finish dy lu. going to Degree next sem. so fast pass one year dy. =(
- 2/3years ago, still in SM Convent. playing, crazy-in, enjoy-ing school life. breaking rules, getting scolded, burning stuff (trust me, we DID burn some "stuff", "building") lolx. somehow, i really enjoyed my life there. especially in Music. i miss chapel, Pn.Florina and all the funs and trip, Sarawak, Pangkor,etc.it was real FUN.
- 5years ago, my first time meeting those St.Andrew's people at a Christmas Camp. i joined St.Andrew's Community Church. Youth. and now, i seem to old to be there dy. 5 years! i have been a member there. i've been baptised there. and i'm STILL there.
- 8years ago, i'm 10years old. ryte after i skipped my Standard 4, i'm in Standard 5. ALL ALONE. it was bad at first. SO LOST. but managed met new group friends, Smita, Siew Ee ,Raja, Jeslyn, Siew Tzen. they changed my life, somehow. AND most importantly. we are still friends TODAY, 8years later.
everything is not the same now.day by day, people walk in and out from your life. some leave to futher their studies, some just turn away from you, some just disappear without a word, some will still be here but they have changed. sometime it might hurt. and sometime you might not get use to it. you'll feel akward. but sometime it makes you feel good. i mean it does make you feel something. this is LIFE. you'll miss them, miss the time with them and everything about them. but nothing can turn back time. just appreciate every moment you have with them. GOSH! i'm sick. i'm going to Genting tomorrow. how can i be sick now.!! =( sob sob. sniff sniff. flu, cough and sore throat.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
The rules are:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player than tags 5 people and posts their names, than goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they done got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog.
What was I doing 10 years ago ( 1998)?
1. i was 8years old.
2. i was a PREFECT at school.
3. i ran and fell down and hurt my... *belowmylips*. (the scar is still there!)
4. i have mushroom head hair style (straight fringe, ear lope length).
5. my best-friend was THONG SU-XIAN. *lol*
5 things on my to-do list today
1. "yam cha" with Hon Kit.
2. eat? dinner?
3. link people to my blog.
4. bank-in house rental.
5. go jog.(failed!)
5 Snacks I enjoy
1. kinder bueno.
4. fruits.*healthy snacks!*
5. mainly anything chewable. haha.!
5 Things I would do if I were a billionaire
1. hire body-guard. *takut kena kidnap or rompak.*
2. shopSHOPand SHOP.
3. give to expand God's Kingdom.
4. to charity. MISSIONs.
5 of my bad habits
1. i loves to SLEEP.
2. ponteng class. LAZY.
3. being SCARY.think and say stuff i shouldn't.
4. talks ALOT. alot.
5. i like to play.
5 places I have lived
1. Ipoh Garden East, IPOH *current house*
2. Westlake 1531, KAMPAR *current hostel*
3. Westlake 1550, KAMPAR *ex-hostel*
4. Jalan Intan 1579, KAMPAR *ex-hostel/house*
5. many more places. .. .. .. . .. .. . .. ..
5 jobs I've had
1. FILA's sales assistant.
2. UTAR's usher.
3. 21st CAFE's .....
4. full-time STUDENT.
5. daughter to my parent and my FATHER.
5 people I tag:
2. sze yan
Friday, May 2, 2008
PLEASE send me your phone number via SMS to my phone.!! please include ya name. my phone officially DIED and all the contact "rest-in-peace" with ma phone. so, i need you people to send me your contact again. THANKS alot.
regarding this blogspot, i will TRY to be more "hardworking" to keep on updating.
after my finals i stayed in Kampar for extra few days. in those few days, i when to 2 club in Ipoh. (brought by some Kampar fellas lah. ==" ) first on Fri, we when TZ2. the music there was OK OK ni la.. can dance, enjoyed a lil'.. then alot girls but no "leng luis", leng chai also limited only. but got one shuffler who i admired his back.. BACK only.. front tak boleh punya.. haha.. then.. Sat we when down to SHARKS.. aiyoh>!! regret like what ni... never been into that place ma excited lo.. thought got how nice how nice.. MA CONCLUSION, the place memang "lala" place.. (no-offense) songs all.. memang for shuffle ni.. BOOM BOOm BOOM ni.. very "sien" wan.. but ada banyak lui .. chai.. tak sempat kap.. haha.. still from this both place i can say that i still dont really enjoy clubbinh.. hmm.. MAYB.. i memang a good budak baik le.. ahahha... *evil grin*
Mother's Day's around the corner.. planned anything for ya mum ??